Why not just take the trade at 1:1 from that trigger line you think is your edge?'' I don't know...Because I am retarded I guess...''
Why not this, why not that... see what you are doing as a whole... Do what you know is right, and things will work out.
Its funny, because if so, that means I subconsciously felt guilty or ashamed that the trade did not work .....
How could what the market does, make me feel ashamed? or guilty ?
The reason is because even if I thought I had solid plan, I didn't believe in my plan to the point I could dissociate myself from its results.
Every loss was a hit to my ego.... I was maybe objective to the idea of going long or short, but not objective to the idea of winning or loosing.